Monday, February 29, 2016


Y'all, don't forget about T.A.Z.
Especially don't forget about the Rig Veda. 

"Amour fou is saturated with its own aesthetic, it fills itself to the borders of itself with the trajectories of its own gestures, it runs on angels' clocks, it is not a fit fate for commissars and shopkeepers [damn] Its ego evaporates in the mutability of desire, its communal spirit withers in the selfishness of obsession."


Unseen Chaos (po-te-kitea)
Unpossessed, Unpassing
Chaos of utter darkness
Untouched & untouchable

"Every realized consciousness is an "emperor" whose sole form of rule is to do nothing to disturb the spontaneity of nature, the Tao. The "sage" is not Chaos itself, but rather a loyal child of Chaos--one of P-an-Ku's fleas, a fragment of flesh of Tiamat's monstrous son. "Heaven and Earth," says Chuang Tzu, "were born at the same time I was, & 10,000 things are one with me...

Chaos never died."


"Certain sects believe that the world (or "a" world) has already come to an end. For Jehovah's Witnesses it happened in 1914. For certain oriental occultists, it occurred during the Major Conjunction of the Planets in 1962.  Joachim of Fiore proclaimed the Third Age, that of the Holy Spirit, which replaced those of Father & Son. Hassan II of Alamut proclaimed the Great Resurrection, the immanentization of the eschaton, paradise on earth. Profane time came to an end somewhere in the late Middle Ages. Since then we've been living angelic time--only most of us don't know it. "


Remember, only in Classical Physics does Chaos have anything to do with entropy, heat-death, or decay. In our physics (Chaos Theory), Chaos identifies with Tao, beyond both yin-as-entropy & yang-as-energy, more a principle of continual creation than of any nihil, void in the sense of potentia, not exhaustion. (Chaos as the "sum of all orders.")


"The Manichees & Cathars believed that the body can be spiritualized--or rather, that the body merely contaminates pure spirit & must be utterly rejected. The Gnostic perfecti (radical dualists) starved themselves to death to escape the body & return to the pleorema of pure light. 

So: to evade the evils of the flesh--murder, war, famine, greed--paradoxically only one path remains: murder of one's own body, war on the flesh, famine unto death, greed for salvation. 
The radical monists however (Ismailis, Ranters, Antinomians) consider that body & spirit are one, that the same spirit which pervades a black stone also infuses the flesh with its light; that all lives & all is life. "Things are what they are spontaneously... everything is natural... all in motion as if there were a True Lord to move them--but if we seek for evidence of this lord we fail to find any." (Kuo Hsiang)
Paradoxically, the monist path also cannot be followed without some sort of "murder, war, famine, greed": the transformation of death into life (food, negentropy)--war against the Empire of Lies--"fasting of the soul," or renunciation of the Lie, of all that is not life--& greed for life itself, the absolute power of desire. 
Even more: without knowledge of the darkness ("carnal knowledge") there can exist no knowledge of the light ("gnosis"). The two knowledges are not merely complementary: say rather identical, like the same note played in different octaves. Heraclitus claims that reality persists in a state of "war." Only clashing notes can make harmony. ("Chaos is the sum of all orders.")

Anyways, contending with a lot of "inner chaos"
And "outer stability"
Garners a simultaneous pride & impatience in me.

Living like a Queen.
Clean drinking water / Roof / Bed / Food (altho I've made choices & I'm calling this period 'functional anorexia') / Safety on the street / Work / Leisure / Books

Enjoying the experience of living through a body. Enough time on my hands to find ways to hate it 2.

But still, today, my chin started in on a stupid, ugly wobbling when I read the description of this book: 

"Originally published under the title Asceticism and Eroticism in the Mythology of Siva, this book traces the development of an Indian approach to an enduring human dilemma: the conflict between spiritual aspirations and human desires."

What to keep in the body, what to wring out? 

"Maybe you just have a prolactin disorder."

We'll see. 

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